A Few Firsts II

First up-my first school-related meltdown:
This week has been....blah. I've spent every single day since last Thursday studying for a pathophysiology test we had this Thursday. I stayed late last Friday, I got a coworker to cover my shift so I could go to school and study on Saturday, I studied on Sunday, I studied all day Monday, all day Tuesday (although a lot of time was dedicated to a Med Chem test we had on Wednesday), all day Wednesday, and even studied all Thursday morning since the test was in the afternoon. I memorized notes, I made study guides, I reviewed study guides from my classmates, and I studied previous exams for example questions. I felt 100% prepared for this test. I walked in there so confident-I knew that I could handle anything the professors tried to throw at us...I just had no idea they'd throw out a test more evil than the devil himself. My professor always has an answer key there that we can check once we turn in our test. I can never leave without comparing my test with the answer key because I want to know my score immediately, but I wish I hadn't looked. Without actually divulging how poorly I did, let's just say that I walked out of that test completely deflated, stomped on, depreciated, flattened, punctured, devalued, kicked in the teeth, shot down, drained of all intelligence, shattered, weakened...and that only describes about 30% of what I felt. I should have just not studied at all-I couldn't have done much worse. I barely made it to my car before I lost it. I haven't cried that hard at school since I was in 1st grade and I thought my older sister, who was in 5th grade, was going to forget to pick me up, leaving me to find my own way home. (I used to cry every day when it came time to go home, no matter how much she assured me each morning that she would NEVER forget to pick me up.) It's not the lowest score I've ever gotten, but it sure as heck is the absolute worst I've ever done when I put in that much time preparing for it.

Second-I went to a movie yesterday all by myself and I loved it! It may not seem like such a big deal to go to a movie alone, but I felt so independent. And, maybe I just needed to feel like I could accomplish something after Thursday's beating. I had a few hours to kill in Salt Lake between commitments, and I decided to go see a movie. Evan and I have been waiting for everything to come out on DVD for so long that I'd forgotten how much I LOVE to watch movies in the theater. Maybe I should work as a ticket taker at the theater just so I can see more movies on the big screen... Anyway, we don't have TV and I haven't been to a movie for so long (already said that) that I had no idea what was playing. I walked up to the theater, saw a poster for a romantic looking film with "Edward", and saw that it was starting in 5 minutes. Perfect! I knew Evan wouldn't care if I saw a lovey-dovey film without him, so I bought a ticket for "Remember Me". I even treated myself to a kid's popcorn and kid's drink. I LOVED LOVED LOVED the movie. I knew absolutely nothing about the film, and I believe that's the only way you should see it. DON'T GO LOOKING UP THE PLOT ANYWHERE! Truthfully, it hasn't gotten great reviews. In fact, it's gotten terrible reviews. But I don't care what the critics have had to say. I wasn't feeling very critical over the acting, cinematography, yada, yada, yada. Maybe it's because I was still in a somber mood from the day before, but I loved it. It was a slower paced movie, and it's a drama not a romantic comedy. I'm not, however, going to say that you have to rush out and see it right now, or that you'll love it as much as me. I don't want to be responsible for you wasting a few hard-earned dollars if you end up agreeing with the critics. (By the way, it does have two little risque scenes and it says the F-word twice. I thought they couldn't say that twice in a PG-13, but obviously they can now. So, since you can't look anything up about the movie so that you don't spoil it, that's your breakdown of why it's rated what it is.)